Forget...

I don’t know whether it’s true,

But if it is

Then you are better off having no memory

For all those things that you said,

And all the time we spent

Refuses to flush out of my system

And my memories are killing me everyday

I have a host of friends

And you were one of them

But now even in a crowded place

I feel like a loner again

I cannot say what I’m going through

I will not beg to you

I only need some answers

Don’t know whether you have them

For if I ask you a thing

You’d say I know nothing

And then blame me all over again

Saying it was me all the way

So it is better off this way

With you saying you forget

But my memory is killing me every day

You say be patient learn to forget

I'm no good

But I'm no good at forgetting either

So it is so hard to just forget

But they say time heals

And with time the days will fade

And then when you knock at my door

I’d ask “do I know you”

For by then I would have learnt to forget...

And then...

You will have to learn to forget all over again!

My love for you is as perennial as eternity and vast and enormous as the universe itself as deep as the sea and as beautiful and Utopic as the concept of heaven itself -- liberating and boundless. You feel the same and you will never love anyone else that way ever and you will be there for me and if there is GOD then he knows it all and one day we both will be together, I want to spend the rest of my life with you and there will that day that GOD will gift us when we both will be together...and I have full faith that day will come...I will patiently wait...when I can just cuddle up to you and sleep and not worry about who says what...not worry about whether we are married or not...just you and me...talking about our philosophies of life and just stay that way...       

Here you go...adding another to the list...I'm in bad shape...very bad...I need divine intervention and I need him to say IT

What's the time? Seems it's already morningI see the sky, it's so beautiful and blueThe TV's on but the only thing showingIs a picture of you
Oh, I get up and make myself some coffeeI try to read a bit but the story's too thinI thank the Lord above, you're not here to see meIn this shape I'm in
Spending my time, watching the days go byFeeling so small, I stare at the wallHoping that you think of me tooI'm spending my time
I try to call but I don't know what to tell youI leave a kiss on your answering machineOh, help me please, is there someone who can make meWake up from this dream?
Spending my time, watching the days go byFeeling so small, I stare at the wallHoping that you are missing me too
I'm spending my time, watching the sun go downI fall asleep to the sound, of tears of the clownPrayer gone blind, I'm spending my time
My friends keep telling me, "Hey, life will go on"Time will make sure I'll get over youThis silly game of love you play, you win only to lose
I'm spending my time, watching the days go byFeeling so small, I stare at the wallHoping that you think of me too
I'm spending my time, watching the sun go downI fall asleep to the sound, of tears of the clownPrayer gone blind, I'm spending my time
I can't live without your loveGood I am spending my timeMy time, my timeMakes me big without you honey, honey

another one that suits my situation to the hilt...
In everything I see you appear with meHow come? How come?And everything I do involves you tooWe are like one
In my life there has been so many changesAnd I don't want to be left out in the rain
I don't wanna get hurt, I've done my timeAll I want from you is to tell the truthI don't wanna get hurt no more this timeI don't wanna go blind and findIt's falling apart all the time
In the middle of a dreamYou are there for me, your face, your lipsBut there's no way you can tell'Cos I hide it really well, so well
In my life there has been lovin' and lyin'And I don't need another reason to cry
I don't wanna get hurt, I've done my timeAll I want from you is to tell the truthI don't wanna get hurt no more this timeI don't wanna go blind and findI'm falling apart one more time
I don't wanna get hurt, I've done my timeAll I want from you is to tell the truthI don't wanna get hurt no more this timeI don't wanna go blind and findI'm falling apart one more time, yeahOne more time
(I don't wanna get hurt)(I don't wanna get hurt)I don't wanna get hurt(I don't wanna get hurt)I don't wanna get hurt

You have to kiss me before you leave and you will approach...they say if you want something the whole universe conspires to make it happen...MAKE IT HAPPEN!

In a timeWhere the sun descends aloneI ran a long, long way from homeTo find a heart that's made of stone
I will tryI just need a little timeTo get your face right out of my mindTo see the world through different eyes
Everytime I see youOh, I try to hide awayBut when we meet it seems I can't let goEverytime you leave the roomI feel I'm fading like a flower
Tell me whyWhen I scream, there's no replyWhen I reach out, there's nothing to findWhen I sleep, I break down and cryCry, yeah
Everytime I see youOh, I try to hide awayBut when we meet it seems I can't let goEverytime you leave the roomI feel I'm fading like a flower
Fading like a roseFading like a roseBeaten by the storm
Talking to myselfGetting washed by the rainIt's such a cold, cold townOoh, it's such a cold town
Everytime I see youOh, I try to hide awayBut when we meet it seems I can't let goEverytime you leave the roomI feel I'm fading like a flower
Everytime I see youOh, I try to hide awayBut when we meet it seems I can't let goEverytime you leave the roomI feel I'm fading like a
Everytime I see youOh, I try to hide awayBut when we meet it seems I can't let goEverytime you leave the roomI feel I'm fading like a flower
Everytime you leave the roomI feel I'm fading like a flowerEverytime I see you
Fading like a roseEverytime you leave the roomEverytime I see you

Could not be more appropriate for me!!!

So it appears Mr Charmer cannot understand why he behaves the way he does and obviously he cannot ignore me, and he does not want me hurt, does not want to admit I am a close friend but is one (through actions), says "bye" to all and deliberately avoids saying bye to me and then comes back and says bye again...when asked like all other times says he does not know why he is doing it...well I have decided to play it cool. I know he loves me and he is battling with his emotions unaware that it surfaces often, trying to give another pretty girl importance and then explaining (which is not his nature) that it is just a mere leg pulling and casual friendship...says you understand me despite that you expect me to behave in one way...when I said you don't need to, he said but you react--you are hurt. But why does he do any of these things there may be reasons but honestly he does not know. Period. Mr Charmer you will come for me...no matter which part of the world you will love me so much that you will seek me out you will travel miles just to be with me...and he can make me jealous...so if I feel love you do too otherwise you' be secretive...that is what you like right...I want to see you wild with passion for me...and I know you will be!

Solitude or loneliness, you can choose your preferred synonym, is the best Muse. At least, ever since I have come of age and literature became my bread and butter, it has been the undisputed balm to that aching sense of melancholic existence. Even though people claim to have observed a couple of grey hairs dangling from the corners, no one's ever, even in passing, remotely related wisdom to me. Foolishness has no end for me, and precedence has taught me nothing it seems--so my certitude has fallen face flat again, and all my self esteem is grovelling in the dust and my poor self eating dirt thereof and trying shake off the embarrassment. Is ignoring someone so difficult, or is it that I am trying too hard to read into things that eventually don't matter...life is not a chapter, but a novel with many chapters and every chapter comes to an end. It impacts the novel I agree, but it is only the concluding chapter that matters, all the others just lead up to it. I have a strange feeling about this guy, and I don't why I feel, he is emotionally connected to me...else why would someone be repelled...only question is how will I deal with it. Had he ignored me, fine but he says contrary things at different points in time, sometimes I feel I matter, and sometimes I don't...the question no longer is whether I matter, but does he matter...so for most I love literature but for most I hate it too--in his words "emotions" are unbecoming of me! Ten more days and he'd be off miles and miles away, and then he will realize that the emotions he kept running away from are chasing him, the further he goes, the closer he will come to me...I am not a drop of sweat he can wipe of, I am like body odour, and you have to deal with it. He said I should never have a friend like HIM till I die, so be it and he will never be able to love another girl, like he has loved me (unknowingly) till he dies. And distance will make him want me, he will come pursuing me...that is destiny...that is his destiny that he will have to come for me...and he will be driven by the very same emotions for which he called me a "poor little girl" struggling with her emotions...You will seek me...you will have to seek me...it is only a matter of time...I am a sadist...but I want to see you struggle to keep away from the emotion you concur on me, see you struggle to get me!